Clubs, Drinks, Techno, & French

Since it's the start of Summer, and what a glorious season it will be, I plan on learning more about what's above. I dunno why but nowadays I often find myself randomly typing these babies on my search box. I don't have a specific target on mind with regard to what I want to know about these stuff but I just feel so satisfied whenever i read an article about any of these. I've been re-obsessing myself with Techno Music and of course when you search about these stuff you find magnificent DJs. Having read about these creatures you suddenly become aware of the usual clubs they can be found. When you know of these clubs you get real interested about what are the things in these clubs until finally, you see their best drink. Now, with the French thing, I'm quite uncertain as to why it is there but let's say I'm planning on taking it as an elective this school year. As of the moment, I'm kinda really having big troubles with it. Why? Because mainly I wanna sound right. I know you can't sound right in just a day but I want it to happen fast. I feel mediocre really. I can't get it right. How do you sound French anyway? I guess I need to drown myself with more Yelle and Jeunet.

Not included in the title is my sudden desire (or perhaps another re-ignited desire) to play an instrument I already play a little bit of piano and was very much experienced when it comes to the "recorder" but I wanna play drums or the beat box or learn how to deal with those shiny synthesizers. You dunno how my eyes turned real big and my lips just spread real wide as I typed in "synthesizers." Anyway, that's perhaps a useless thing to say. However, the guitar and the  piano could be acceptable for now.

Sports? I've only one sport I'm really hooked to right now and that's Football. I wanna do football but first I gotta get "fit" and right for the game. I'm not that much of a sports person since I am indeed a netizen but I could try running every once in a  while. Other things may include: Arnis, Pilates/Yoga/WATEVA, Muay Thai, or some excercise that will allow me to dance like HELL! =)) I love dancing though I'm defo not good at it. But who cares mahn? I'm 14 and living my life. I could dance like some crazeh dork if I want to. Just GTFO if you even dare to tell that to ma face.

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And I Know I Can't Write

And I know I am cramming. And  I know there's this crisis and I know I am falling. There will not be a day that I don't feel guilty because of this. I don't  need to enumerate all the things and factors of this EPIC DOWNFALL of my life. All's been great for the past years. But now? I just crack. I crack at everything.Every type of pressure I face. I don't want it. I don't. I just want to live a life where I do what I want. I want to be what I want. But there will always ALWAYS ALWAYS be a catch. And that catch? That catch is something I find hard to give up. Most of the time, they're my academics. I'm not a nerd .... maybe I am, but it's just that I believe I pursue two different things and like what Robert Frost said: it was indeed as if there were 2 roads that diverged in a yellow wood. And like him, I was sorry, extremely sorry, I could not travel both.

It was always the fight on what you should do and what you want to do. Why? I want to be normal like other kids. I don't wanna care 'bout my grades,  'bout my grades and the likes. I want to do what I want and just cram and people wouldn't find that surprising.

Random. Thinking of just making a typepad  account and put all my entries there. I know it's too random but this is my diary. I don't care if anyone's reading. I don't need readers.Why? Because this blog just reveals too much of myself. I feel vulnerable when I know that people I see everyday read this. But I wouldn't mind people caring for me. Somehow, I guess that's the reason for all this. Never mind 'bout what I said of not wanting followers. I want 'em especially when they show concern. I'm a wallflower so in real life I don't get to have that many friends. I wish I could. But I'd always be shy. ALWAYS.

I Should Write my Monologue Now.