2nd Post on a Saturday

Hey errybodeh! I'm back again. And right now I'm not planning to re-do my post about Snow Patrol and Jesse McCartney.  No way mahn. It  was real effort spent and needed there and now I ain't got time. I swear, I'd sleep early today and I will at least I'd try ;) which is like this huge excuse of not doing something.  Anyway, I just want y'all to know how I keep my own diary and I mean a real one. I lost it though. *headdesk* 

I LOST MY DIARY.

What makes it all the more frustrating is that in the diray the new versions of the 20 and 50 Pesos can be found. Also in that diary are my Wedding Plans with Paul, the beginnings of My Azkal Mania, and it also contains My Letter for James. My life is too fucked up as the picture says. Well, here are more pictures just to make things a little lighter. It makes me happy to post pictures here guys. Lemme be, 'kay?

It Got Lost

So earlier I was working on this post that took me about ONE AND A HALF hours to do. It was about Snow Patrol and Jesse McCartney.  And just like what is said about the title of this entry that awful lot of work GOT LOST. How I wish Blogspot has this sorta Autosave thing. Now does it? I dunno. I'm not that much of the Blogspot Person. I dunno if ever I'd do  another one like that again but I sure do hope the next time it won't get lost. It sucks. Well, I've got to move on. Gonna post here some pictures to get y'all entertained.
I SUCK!

So today I posted about posting again before the day ends and that's what I'm actually doing. No question about that. I'm just gonna try to sum up what the friggin' hell I'm doing. I'm actually watching rather waiting for a bunch of videos to load so that I could actually watch some stuff. I have a few things I want to watch including one movie and one play. I don't really know how I could possibly watch the play since it's supposed to be watched live but let's just leave that all to YouTube. Now these 2 include:

 I wanna watch 'em bad. Spring Awakening was just real famous before, wasn't it? It's just that it was brought about (I'm referring to the adaptation with Lea Michele & Jonathan Groff in 'em) I was a lot younger and wasn't that much of a Netizen and didn't hear about this wonderful thing. Of course, the same thing applies to Sienna Miller's Factory Girl. I've read about this Film a lot though. Well ok,  it was referred to by a lot of articles in the magazines I read. So I knew about a film called Factory Girl starring Sienna Miller but never realized that it was a film mostly about Edie Sedgwick and Andy Warhol. Yes, you can actually throw bricks at me now. I was living under a BOULDER you see. A FRIGGIN' HUGE BOULDER.  

APRIL FOOL'S Summer? First Post?

As I said I'm gonna try to do more bloggin' here. Today is April Fool's Day. I dunno why but I keep on thinking something special should happen on this day every year. It could be my one excuse to not acting properly or according to anyone's rulebook. Nothing special happened today but that should be normal to y'all. Most of my life is not worth sharing for it is simply boring. But I'd try to think of other things to possibly blog about.

Honestly, one thing that I really motivated me to blogging more is the fact that it's real nice to see my blog posts with pictures in 'em. Now lemme tell ya that I've quite a collection of pictures. I have a ton I wanna share. Most of 'em aren't mine since I've no SLR yet but hopefully you'd love 'em as much as I do. But if it's plain pictures that you wanna find in this blog you could try checking my Tumblr Account. 

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Gonna be postin' a whole lot this Summer. Perhaps 3 or 4 posts daily. I guess I'm too used to microblogging. :) For more Short & SARCASTIC WittyStatements Try My Twitter Account: Potatoes Potatin.

And yeah, Just So You Know: 

Clubs, Drinks, Techno, & French

Since it's the start of Summer, and what a glorious season it will be, I plan on learning more about what's above. I dunno why but nowadays I often find myself randomly typing these babies on my search box. I don't have a specific target on mind with regard to what I want to know about these stuff but I just feel so satisfied whenever i read an article about any of these. I've been re-obsessing myself with Techno Music and of course when you search about these stuff you find magnificent DJs. Having read about these creatures you suddenly become aware of the usual clubs they can be found. When you know of these clubs you get real interested about what are the things in these clubs until finally, you see their best drink. Now, with the French thing, I'm quite uncertain as to why it is there but let's say I'm planning on taking it as an elective this school year. As of the moment, I'm kinda really having big troubles with it. Why? Because mainly I wanna sound right. I know you can't sound right in just a day but I want it to happen fast. I feel mediocre really. I can't get it right. How do you sound French anyway? I guess I need to drown myself with more Yelle and Jeunet.

Not included in the title is my sudden desire (or perhaps another re-ignited desire) to play an instrument I already play a little bit of piano and was very much experienced when it comes to the "recorder" but I wanna play drums or the beat box or learn how to deal with those shiny synthesizers. You dunno how my eyes turned real big and my lips just spread real wide as I typed in "synthesizers." Anyway, that's perhaps a useless thing to say. However, the guitar and the  piano could be acceptable for now.

Sports? I've only one sport I'm really hooked to right now and that's Football. I wanna do football but first I gotta get "fit" and right for the game. I'm not that much of a sports person since I am indeed a netizen but I could try running every once in a  while. Other things may include: Arnis, Pilates/Yoga/WATEVA, Muay Thai, or some excercise that will allow me to dance like HELL! =)) I love dancing though I'm defo not good at it. But who cares mahn? I'm 14 and living my life. I could dance like some crazeh dork if I want to. Just GTFO if you even dare to tell that to ma face.

P.S. All images in my Blog are not Mine unless stated otherwise :) 

And I Know I Can't Write

And I know I am cramming. And  I know there's this crisis and I know I am falling. There will not be a day that I don't feel guilty because of this. I don't  need to enumerate all the things and factors of this EPIC DOWNFALL of my life. All's been great for the past years. But now? I just crack. I crack at everything.Every type of pressure I face. I don't want it. I don't. I just want to live a life where I do what I want. I want to be what I want. But there will always ALWAYS ALWAYS be a catch. And that catch? That catch is something I find hard to give up. Most of the time, they're my academics. I'm not a nerd .... maybe I am, but it's just that I believe I pursue two different things and like what Robert Frost said: it was indeed as if there were 2 roads that diverged in a yellow wood. And like him, I was sorry, extremely sorry, I could not travel both.

It was always the fight on what you should do and what you want to do. Why? I want to be normal like other kids. I don't wanna care 'bout my grades,  'bout my grades and the likes. I want to do what I want and just cram and people wouldn't find that surprising.

Random. Thinking of just making a typepad  account and put all my entries there. I know it's too random but this is my diary. I don't care if anyone's reading. I don't need readers.Why? Because this blog just reveals too much of myself. I feel vulnerable when I know that people I see everyday read this. But I wouldn't mind people caring for me. Somehow, I guess that's the reason for all this. Never mind 'bout what I said of not wanting followers. I want 'em especially when they show concern. I'm a wallflower so in real life I don't get to have that many friends. I wish I could. But I'd always be shy. ALWAYS.

I Should Write my Monologue Now.

New Year in the ICU

Again,  it isn't my instinct to acually post anything here immediately so these are just compiled tweets about what happened for the past two days. They're not really that long. So maybe I'd add a little more.

I stayed in Cavite for the past 2 days so wasn't able to tweet but was able to see my lola. She looks so helpless.
I especially hated the fact that my aunts were all so teary-eyed as we greeted her happy new year. I know I can't blame them.
But that won't stop me from actually feeling slightly "not-okay" with it. Our eyes were glued to the little monitor thing.
I hated the power given to that thing. It was a machine but we depended on it so much. What it shows could trigger any possibility.
I ABHORRED IT.
And though I was given the opportunity to say ANYTHING to my lola my mouth was clearly shut & my mind was fully blank.
I don't wanna say anything. 'Cause deep down inside me I believe that my aunts too have this feeling deep within 'em.
Besides, what was I suppose to say? Joking about the situation is my initial instinct but everyone was just too sober.


Basically, those are it, each line pertains to single tweet. I never really said  anything about anything you can find in those tweets to any of the "grown-ups" nor my other younger cousins. Not meaning to be rude or a bad grandchild but it's that I can't take seeing my lola (grandma)  like that ; so weak and helpless. It's just easier to let go of her after seeing her REAL condition.